The new year, for me, was off to a rough start. I’d been here in Las Vegas since last summer but I felt like I hadn’t made any progress. I struggled with depression, thoughts of suicide, and other existential matters. I tried a few different personal improvement methods, none of which worked. No matter what I tried, I always ended up faltering and failing.
In late January, I did a Runic spell that would shake up everything I thought was secure. These consequences were unintended. In the back of my mind I knew everything would happen; I just thought I could prevent it. I was in denial. The next day, when I began to see tangible results, I wondered what in the world I had brought upon myself. What I experienced then was the falling away of everything false, everything unproductive, and my old self began to die.
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